Showing posts with label how I read cards. Show all posts
Showing posts with label how I read cards. Show all posts

Thursday, December 29, 2011

The Faeries' Oracle — 41. Ilbe the Retriever

Artist: Brian Froud
Author: Jessica MacBeth

"Office of Unclaimed Property, Hopes, and Wishes. Loyalty."

Oracle decks are different from tarot decks in a number of manners. There is no predetermined pattern to the deck. There is no history of the cards. The cards are not used for games. Often, there are no "dark" images as there are in the tarot deck (i.e.: the devil, the tower, death, 10 of swords, 3 of swords, 4 of coins, etc.)

Oracle decks are similar to a 'book with all answers,' where opening a page answers your preset question. In this case, drawing a card tells you which page to open to.

Oracle decks often begin with the author's passionate belief in one particular area. Some decks, as this one, marry existing imagery to suitable meanings. In general, these cards spring from a desire to tap into the spiritual world to find "insight, wisdom, and joy," as is the purpose of this particular deck.

The author says, Don't read someone else's definitions of the cards until you already have some idea of what they mean to you. This is good advice for any work of art, literature, poetry, graffiti, kitsch, tarot card, or ancient spiritual text. Don't let someone tell you what it means. Figure it out yourself, then listen to others' opinions. You will gain no insight if you do not allow your inner eye to open. You will gain no wisdom if you always only listen to the words of others— perhaps knowledge, but not wisdom. And joy? What truly gives you joy?

Jessica MacBeth gives good instructions on how to get to know a card. In part, she asks a series of questions. She adds clarifying questions to help you think; I give no such help here. I summarize:
1) What is the emotional atmosphere of the card?
2) What might the physical manifestation of this card's symbols be in someone's life? What aspect of life does this card symbolize to you?
3) What do you see in the card's symbols that might represent the card's mental characteristics?
4) What are the spiritual characteristics of the card's symbols?
5) What do you find most appealing or comforting about this card?
6) What do you find most unappealing or uncomfortable about this card?
7) What other ideas or impressions do you have of this card?
And she says: if you fail to answer any of these questions, take a break until you can.

The following terms must be defined by YOU: symbol, spiritual & mental characteristics, comforting & uncomfortable, appealing & unappealing. These are opinions and reflections of experience.

To me, this card looks like an old-man-puppy begging at the table. I used to love Froud when I was a little girl. I liked his dreamy images, the way he made pictures and I could daydream words. Now his language of pictures no longer speaks to me. That which I see in reality is more fantastic than any faerie he could ever dream. So to me, the card looks like an old-man-puppy and I want to tell it, "grow up." I will not let this deck "speak" to me.

There are a few things that could be happening. Among them are self-censorship, lack of interest in oracle decks, and refusal to assimilate anyone else's vision of faerie. Nonetheless, I will answer the list of questions.

The creature seems selfishly immature. It is wanting something, whining, trying to make me feel guilty if I do not give what it wishes. This beast has a certain slowness about it. It looks spiritually incomplete, grasping to the leadership of others. I find its wings appealing, because I like wings. I find the tilt of its head unappealing. It makes me want to wring its long neck, but the neck seems rubbery and I get the feeling that if I tried to choke it, the creature would laugh. I find myself fixated on wringing its un-wringable neck and hypnotized by its maniacal laughter into continuing on and on into insanity. It is frustrating. I come across as cruel and crazy—

but this is how we sometimes seem
in both reality and dream.


Saturday, December 24, 2011

11. Strength — The Shakespeare Oracle

[One well versed in Shakespeare could use this deck to learn tarot and never need to look up a meaning in the book.]

Artist: Cynthia von Buhler
Author: A. Bronwyn Llewellyn

Interpretation: "This card suggests fortitude, confidence, and command. This isn't the raw courage and endurance needed to leap into battle, but the inner strength to do what has to be done, no matter how difficult or long it takes." Etc.

I keep forgetting to ask a question. I have no idea what this card answers other than the eternal question "Who am I?" This is not a bad thing. Ramana Maharshi tells us:

"Who am I" is not a mantra. It means that you must find out where in you arises the "I"-thought which is the source of all other thoughts. [AND] Self-enquiry is certainly not and empty formula and it is more than the repetition of any mantra. If the enquiry "Who am I" were a mere mental Questioning, it would not be of much value. The very purpose of self-enquiry is to focus the entire mind at its source. It is not, therefore, a case of one "I" searching for another "I." Much less is self-enquiry an empty formula, for it involves an intense activity of the entire mind to keep it steadily poised in pure Self-awareness.

Unfortunately, the simplicity of meditation is more complex than the complexity of reading tarot:

To enquire "Who am I?" really means trying to find out the source of the ego or the "I"-thought. You are not to think of other thoughts, such as "I am not this body." Seeking the source of "I" serves as a means of getting rid of all other thoughts. We should not give scope to other thoughts... but must keep the attention fixed on finding out the source of the "I"-thought by asking, as each thought arises, to whom the thought arises. If the answer is "I get the thought," continue the enquiry by asking "Who is this 'I' and what is its source?"


Each tarot card answers "Who am I" in a different way. Each card shows something different in myself. At any moment, I embody every card. When I pull a card with no question in mind but "Who am I?" the answer is always, "You are this." Then I find the part of me that the card speaks of and how I currently embody that aspect.

I pulled the Strength card and thus ask, "How am I Strength?" I see that I embody many aspects of strength in its positive attitude. Although often I am uncertain of what I am doing, confidence in my self and my world-view gives me strength. I admit I pulled the card upside-down, and seek meaning there. It tells me to watch for self-doubt and lack of faith. These are things that weaken me.




this card whispers in a rush:
you are strong: be strong be strong